think a little less

i really don’t know what to do with my life. i don’t mean like, occupation, or school, or anything like that. but i mean, i have dilemmas and if they aren’t settled quickly, there will be very copious amounts of drama for me. either way, someone will definitely get hurt but seriously, if nothing happens within the next month, i’m going to be extremely bored. and me being bored means people getting hurt. maybe not physically, but emotionally and spiritually. i can be devastating when nothing happens.

to be honest, i blame this on the lack of varied communications. i’ve lost so many people within the past few months and their jobs of keeping me cool haven’t completely been fulfilled. i’m still here, waiting for something to get at me from a different perspective. i need adventure. i need it bad. and if i don’t get it, i’m going to start making my own adventures with anyone in proximity.

let’s see if even i understand myself. urgh.