think a little less

i’ve been telling people that i was gonna be a father soon ahaha

technically, i can’t say if it’s a lie or not, considering i’m not sure if i will in the future or not. hahaha i just love the reactions i’ve been getting. oddly enough though, a lot of people are cool with it and have been telling people “you’ll be a great father” etc, etc.

no, i haven’t knocked anyone up. i’m just future referencing by taking a shot in the dark ahaha. chill. it’s all for fun

*sigh* i’ve given up my term “broken” because it seemed that i had assumed that people had been fixed at one point, but had undergone a change that left them destroyed.

from this point, i’ll simply use the allegory of a jigsaw puzzle. each comes in a different box with a different set number of pieces. every set appears scattered and irrelevant to one another. the picture of the final product remains a mystery. without a view of where it comes from, only after some time had been spent putting the pieces together, do you ever see the big picture. within each piece lies small clues and details that tell stories when adjacent to another ever so perfectly.

it’s best to reserve judgment because privilege and talent is parceled out unequally among us. we all begin as strangers to one another with our own different problems, issues, preferences, and oddities with combinations of the sort those of which we’ve never seen. no one knows everything about us upon first glance. with no background information on a person, the only way we can get to know each other is to spend some time figuring each other out and learning through action, analysis, and contact. only after we’ve learned little by little to we grasp an image of who someone is.

i mean, it’s cute and all, and i should probably be excited that i’m becoming legal (to do nothing). i think the only benefits of becoming 18 are about independence. i’m legally an adult and can move out without emancipation, i’m tried as an adult and my parents are no longer involved in my personal life, and i can legally become a porn star. i think i’ll just stick to being a stripper. it’s more fun that way.

ANYWAYS;

yeah, with that being said, i’m honestly not that excited about turning 18. to me, it’s just another year of my life and it won’t feel too different. i’m having a party though due to my youngest brother having the same birthday as me. so i guess at least i’ll have something to do.